3 Years

So it's about 4 am. Right about this time 3 years ago, I was laying in a bed at a men's retreat. Having a conversation with my roommate Brian Stakelin about being resigned to the fact that my life was never gonna change. I was doomed to anonymity, criticism, high expectations I never wanted and just over all saying I was never going to know Jesus. Even though I didn't know that that was what I was saying.

About 6 hours later, that all changed. My heart, my plot in life, my trajectory. Everything about me changed when the only acceptable sacrifice for the world said that He did it for me. I was all of a sudden, in an instant, a redeemed son of the most high God.

3 today marks my 3 year spiritual birthday. 3 years of walking with Jesus. Harder at times than others. Beautiful all the way through. And I am none of the things I had resigned myself to. I am new every day. Criticism and pride no longer mark my life. I live with high expectation that is beautiful and is a joy that I want and strive to be closer to Jesus daily. I am loved and not alone.

If all that weren't enough, Jesus decided to orchestrate things so that some of the biggest gifts of my time with Him yet, all started about a week ago and are starting to culminate today. I can't believe His goodness and faithfulness. I am in complete awe of His blessing. How He just showers us with it and all I have to do is choose Him.

Today I feel tired, sore and more blessed than I can imagine. I get to live a life like I could have never imagined for myself. I got to accept a fantastic offer on my birthday that is a massive gift to me. And I get to spend the day with the girl I am in love with and more and more each day falling more and more in love with her.

I really have no other real words except blessed. And so thankful.

Happy Birthday to me!