For those who don’t know and are reading this, Accelerate is a year long Leadership Training class that my Pastor Pete Hise and Quest Community Church started in ’05. It is intense and breaks down walls and pushes us to limits and closer to Jesus and I was just an Apprentice. I wasn’t even in Accelerate proper and the growth that happened was crazy.
Now here is the kicker. I sucked it up this year. The majority of the year was spent picking me in so many ways. There was so much fighting. I look back on it now and ask why. It was dumb. It was picking self over Jesus and people. And still I am amazed and what Jesus still let me do and be a part of. What He said I got to do anyway. What He led me out of into the place I am now.
Now the last 5 months or so were way different than the first several. It all changed when I decided to agree with what Jesus said about me. It’s amazing what that can do. For some reason I spent a lot of time disagreeing with His love for me. Disagreeing with who He said that I was. Disagreeing with the favor that He was handing to me. That may be the dumbest thing ever. Why disagree with Him? Especially when He is telling you amazing things.
So here I am at the end of it looking back. Amazing year. Hard year. Didn’t make it easy on my Accelerate leader year. Didn’t complete everything I was called to year. Received lots of grace and growth year. Heart changing year.
Do I get to turn around and do it again? I hope so. Do I get to be in Accelerate proper? I am praying so and I am terrified of the prospect. It won’t at all be easy. It will be really hard for sure. And I believe in whatever Jesus wants to walk me into. I believe He will make me faithful as He is faithful.
So here’s to 09 and the real beginning of 2010.
